If I fell–Songfic

Warning: One Tree Hill’s Brooke and her feelings during Season 6 mainly surrounding her ‘relationship’ with Julian.

I still remember talking to him the first time. He was so arrogant and jock like. So sure of himself and we all thought he was here for Peyton. I mean he really tried to make her jealous or something. And now what does he want? He was so cute when he helped me looking for Sam. He was so caring and he kind of saved me.

If I fell in love with you

would you promise to be true,

and help me understand?

What is tonight about? Why am I dressed like this? Could Sam be right? He really did say 'Hot clothing designer' what does that mean? Should I really dress up tonight? Arrgh Sam and her stupid ideas! And now everything changed.

'cos I've been in love before,

and I found that love was more,

than just holding hands.

His grin! That should be illegal. I just don't know what to think. I can't think when I am around him. Sam walking in on us should be proof enough of that. He is driving me crazy but is really a good guy? Having fun, what is that? He said it and than Peyton told me that he jumped right into bed with someone else after their break up. And than he looked so hurt when I pulled the breaks! Why? If we are just having fun he shouldn't be hurt!

If I give my heart to you,

I must be sure from the very start,

that you would love me more then her.

And then only hours later Peyton tells me her facts were wrong! Oh my god! But what does this mean? He skipped his own premier to nurse his broken heart! He still loves her... Why does this always happen to me?

If I trust in you, oh please,

Don't run and hide,

Oh what does he want now? He is giving me the jacket back? Oh no he really don't loves me. Steady? What does that mean. Am I just a game? Oh my I totally understand why Peyton fell for him. He has a way with words. He is here for the girl in the book , the other girl, me!

If I love you too, oh please don't hurt my pride like her.

That ass! Brookeish? What is that? What does he think? I am not a slut and I never was! Okay maybe... but that so doesn't give him the right do laugh at me. Thank god Peyton is okay with me and Julian. Why is Missy so annoying? What? Who wrote that crazy piece of paper? Sex? That wasn't all I did! What is he thinking? I am not that girl anymore! High school Brooke is gone!

'Cos I couldn't stand the pain,

Oh my god he is so cute! The second break down got me melting. I never want to loose him. And now this. Why did he say that? I just can't say it now it has so much meaning. And then he accuses me of still loving Lucas or hiding behind Sam? That is so not fair! He is so cute and says the perfect thing one minute and than he is being a jerk again.

And I would be sad if our new love was in vain.

What did just happen? It was his idea to forget this freaking incident and when I am ready he just leaves and doesn't even want to meet after his appointment if there even was one! What did I do wrong? He is ignoring me! Why? And now the movie got cancelled and he has to leave. Karma is a bitch! Do I really want him to leave? I feel so bad! He such a good guy.

So I hope you see,

That I would love to love you,

Oh he is so good with words. 'The beauty is in the attempt!' What can I do? I want him to stay. He can't go now. I am going to miss him. Will he come back? Can we still work out? What does the future hold?

And that she will cry when she learns we are two.

He wants me to come with him! He wants Sam to come too? What should I do? I don't want to loose him but Sam she needs a stable environment. Maybe Peyton can help? Apparently not... She is making jokes. I cannot leave! There are a million things here for me Sam, my friends and the wedding and Peyton didn't like it in LA! I really can't decide. I can't go.

'Cos I couldn't stand the pain,

And I would be sad if our new love was in vain.

I said it. I told him I wouldn't go! I lost him! What did I do? Am I stupid? Will I ever see him again?

So I hope you see,

That I would love to love you,

And that she will cry when she learns we are two.

If I fell in love with you.

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So what do you think?

Why am I doing this? I am archiving my work here so I wont loose it. Once upon a time I had a livejournal but that has been discontinued due to my lack of knowledge which name and password or email I used there!

Fanfiction–Oneshot

One Tree Hill –The Bookshelf Problem

Warning: Set sometime after or during 6x18. Phone conversation!

„Hey Brooke! What's up?" Peyton answered her phone happy that she could at least talk to her best friend. „Oh nothing much. How is bed rest? Not to boring i hope!" came the response in a cheery tone that Peyton recognized as fake.

„Oh come on Brooke spill, what happened? Problems with Sam?"

„Oh no Sam is great... it is Julian! Can we talk about him?" „What did he do? Did he hurt you?"

„Not exactly, that is difficult ... he told me that he loves me and i freaked out..." „What did you do? But Brooke 'I love you' isn't something bad. Why did you freak out?" „It is so soon. I mean he came here to get you back and now... it is all so confusing but this isn't the part I really need help with."

„Ok now i am confused. What else did happen? Just tell me the story or if you want just the cliff notes. I can't help you with something i know nothing about!"

Brooke tells Peyton everything from the „ I want you gone" to the „deleted scene"idea.

„And it was his idea to go to dinner then, but as i came out dressed up he was on the phone and needed to reevaluate some filming place and said he would crash at the hotel instead of coming home for dessert!" „ok first of all to much information. Thanks Brooke! Did he say which filming location fell through because Luke didn't mention ..."

„What he lied to me? What could have happened?" „Ok Brooke please walk me through your 'fight' again. I don't get it!"

„Ok he asked me when was the last time I really was in love and then he went to my bookshelf.."

„Bookshelf? Why that?" Peyton wanted to know but Brooke just continued „then we called it a deleted scene and i went to change and as i came back he was in the kitchen ...". Her eyes caught the picture of her, Angie and Lucas on the fridge and everything fell into place. „That idiot! He thinks i am still in love with Lucas!" With that there was a loud bang on the other end of the line „Peyton are you okay? What happened? Do you need me to come over?" „Oh no I just shattered my glass. Are you?" „What do you mean?" „I meant are you still in love with Lucas? I mean how could Julian draw that conclusion?"

„No Peyton i am not in love with Luke i love him as a friend! And I think I have figured out what got Julian spooked. I have a picture on the fridge. It is the one made as Luke helped me with Angie and well it is of us three smiling..." „Oh now i get the bookshelf thing. He was counting the copies...?" The two girls shared a laugh because they both just knew they were okay.

Now they just needed a plan to show Julian that there were no worries!

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Oh what to do on a sunny day

Sounds a little like  "To be or Not to be!" I know that but yeah what should I do today?
The options are :

• finally updating my fanfictions
• go ice skating
• stay in and do nothing aka watch TV

Well updating or better say writing for my fictions would be a wise choice since I haven't written anything for them in ages and somehow I managed to get myself some inspiration last night.
After some small problems I found a movie to watch.

Love&Basketball

Well the start was a little weird but one of my favourite quotes is
"Wanna be my girl?" Just picture it two kids with their bikes no idea what being a couple means a the sweet boy asks that. It was jsut too cute. I didn't really know any of the actors except for Omar Epps, who we know as Dr. Eric Foreman on House. BTW I might need to catch up on that show... I kind of stopped watching after they started 'creating the new team'! And from what I heard the show went really downhill from there...

If you have checked out my links you must have noticed that I often use imdb for reference and right now it is safe to say that they often have the most information on upcoming project but also on older ones.

So and now you ask why did that inspire me. It is a good question and it leads to telling you that up until last season I was watching One Tree Hill, now you might now why a basketball movie can inspire me :)! Yeah I know it isn't that big a part in the show anymore but still....

Anyways onto my other options...
Iceskating yeah that would be fun seeing as the weather is actually nice outside. We'll see! I have to be home by 17:55 at the latest because then I have to watch TV! (Yeah I am crazy!) But in a short time the European Championship starts and they broadcast a test match between Germany and Austria. Oh didn't I mention the sport before? I am a huge fan of handball! BTW there is a tournament in NYC right now with some great german players (who aren't in the national team anymore but still brilliant!).
so watching this game is sort of a must.

My third option, staying in well that would give me the chance to read up on a movie that is starting in Germany today.

The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus

This movie intrigues me not only because it was one of the last projects Heath Ledger did but also because of the story. The Castlist besides our dearly departed is also reading like a who is who of Actors. You need examples? 

See for yourselves :

• Johnny Depp

  Jude Law

  Colin Farell

  Peter Stormare [John Abruzzi in Prison Break] 

   

  Well so now you can maybe understand why I decided to go check it out. Also I am planning on going to see Up in the Air for obvious reasons :). 

  
  
  
  
  Enjoy the rest of your day and maybe I'll post again later .