Sunday, May 15, 2011

A step behind or Quit playing with my heart

Warning: This is what Ray may have felt during Haunted.

He was going to be in the city anyway and he had enough time so why not drop by the ER and see everyone again. It was a good opportunity to meet them again. Well that was what he was telling himself the whole way there to calm his nerves. Yes he was writing her mails and letters and postcards but that was something friends always do and they are friends. Why was he so nervous then? After he had brought his stuff to the hotel he went to the hospital. To not be spotted the second he arrived he tarned himself as one of the many Halloween goers but how would he get in without being busted? When he arrived at the waiting area Frank just came back from a doughnut run. Thank god for that and after enlisting the desk clerks help he was in and sitting on the bed in curtain three observing the lay of the land. There were a couple of new faces around but otherwise it was the same chaos and drama as always. The mermaid most definitely is an intern and she probably is the idiot in their little merry group because no one else was dressed up. Well Julius Cesar – Frank doesn't count.

The plan was for his friends to come over and examine him but he had to leave it up to Frank to bring him his first 'victim'.

There he was Archie Morris and his all-time favorite enemy Tony Gates standing at the admit desk and Frank came over from the Trauma rooms. Ray heard Frank telling Morris to go see the patient in curtain three and he also saw the dismissive look on Archie's face when he spotted the Frankenstein person but Frank dragged him over anyways. After a little while he had surprised every single member of the ER staff and even the interns by now had to have noticed that the patient in curtain three is some sort of VIP but the most important person hadn't been down in all that time. Ray grew a little restless and so he walked around a little. Was he really that nervous? She is just a friend like the rest of them, right? Judging from the faces the others made right now she was there and that was when she came over. When she introduced herself Ray could hear the irritation and anger in her voice already and so he couldn't resist in aggravating her a little more. It was all worth it when he pulled the mask off and saw her happiness in her sparkling eyes. And you could argue that between them 'Bastard' was a term of endearment. It felt really good to see her again. She seemed happy and in a good place and he really didn't care that most of the ER staff was staring at their reunion like it was some kind of movie scene. They never really talked about 'them' and god forbid relationships so he wasn't really sure if Neela was seeing someone and to be honest he was too afraid to ask her directly. Her smile alone had been worth the trip and hurtful memories. The way her face had lit up when she saw him made his heart soar. He could've done without the run in with the new chief. The woman seemed rather strict, kind of like an Afro-American Weaver. Walking with Neela and seeing her in action was amazing. She had developed quite a bit but seemed a little off, maybe due to his being here or was it the new Australian guy?

Talking to Morris in the lounge had been nearly like old times but back then Pratt would've been there too. It felt wrong somehow sitting there and talk without him. He never meant to ask if Neela really was seeing someone but he couldn't deny how happy he felt when Morris told him she was single. Well he said to his knowledge but hiding a relationship in the ER or in County was next to impossible as history tells us. Besides Archie somehow always knew the newest gossip. But if Neela wasn't seeing someone this Brenner guy certainly was interested. He kind of reminded him of Gates at the beginning. Back then he had pointed out his superiority to the other man to scare him off but now he was inferior. On the subject of Tony Gates. That had been one strange encounter. The ex-paramedic had greeted him in a, well you could say, friendly and normal – between other people – way. He had to ask Archie about that because not only he had thought that was strange. The other people around the admit desk had looked surprised too.

The afternoon and early evening he spent with Neela felt like old times. The playful banter and their familiarity with each other. At first he was hesitant to show her his heart but as the evening progressed he couldn't help himself and kissed her. He couldn't say if he was angry or glad that the Brenner guy had interrupted them but now he knew for sure, that guy was clearly more than a co-worker.

She had played with him again and as always he was one step behind his opponent.

Maybe he had forgotten one song on his mix for Neela: Quit playing with my heart!


So what did you think? Please let me know.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

WORLD LUPUS DAY

 

Spend the day at the university and now I am free and can finally really enjoy and celebrate World Lupus Day.

Lupus doesn’t discriminate.

90% of patients are women.

It can affect your whole body.

Take your meds and life can be practically normal.(mild cases)

Most Lupus patients can’t be in UV light (aka the sunlight) for long or at all.

Lupus patients normally wear a hat and long sleeved clothes when outside!

We always carry sunscreen and emergency meds and papers.

Do you need stylish awareness accessories?

My tip: Go check out ChroniclysILLy and her Designs!

In her blog she always strives to make us giggle! She really has amazing finds Winking smile.

Want to feel right at home and read articles all around Lupus and more? Go check out The Lupus Magazine. Geoff did us all a great favor in creating this free online newspaper! THANK YOU!

And one of my favorite sites is butyoudontlooksick.com Christine found an amazing way to explain living with a chronic illness her Spoon Theory. Derived from that the twitter hashtag #spoonie was born and most of the people in the sites community call themselves Spoonie.

Are you a spoonie or a lupie? Or both? I don’t judge. Do you want to talk to a Lupus Patient?

Join me starting NOW! in my videochat room.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

My Daniel

Warning: Stargate SG1 fic. Two words – Two women and what they mean to Daniel.

Daniel had nearly reached the door to the gate room when he heard the voices of Landry and Mitchell. He rolls his eyes when he hears her.

"Thanks! While I would normally be thrilled to have so much testosterone at my disposal…Where's my Daniel?

He was just about to step into the room when these two words, as innocent as they seem throw him back to when this all started. For a split second Daniel is frozen in place but then he races back to the safe haven that has become his office.

Even though he has almost everything packed up and in storage or on the way to the Daedalus one thing still remains on his desk.

Her photo - the only one he has. She used to say these two words and now she is dead; has been for many years.

But she is still in his heart probably always will be.

She is the reason he joined SG-1 and even after her death she found a way to keep him at the SGC. He only had been her Daniel for a little over a year but he would never forget how affectionate she had been.

After their admittedly rocky start he had stayed on Abydos after the death of Ra only for her to be taken by Apophis.

Damn those Goa'uld!

And now the former host of Quetesh, goddess of Love, Beauty and fertility, Vala.

Kind of ironic!

Why did she say these two words? Was he her Daniel, too?

No! He may be the first Daniel she knew but no he was not hers. He shook his head in confirmation of his thoughts.

He still had the framed picture in his hands when a young Air man came in and told him that General Landry was expecting him in the briefing room.

After dismissing the young man and assuring him that he would make his way in a minute he silently cursed Vala for her choice of words and hurried of.

On the short way from his office to the briefing room he went over his packing list again and noticed that he still had much to sort through.

So let's make this quick.

When Daniel enters he sees Vala already smiling demurely at him and coming in his direction. Oh no! She is not getting a nice hello. And so he bites out: "Okay. Where is it?"


What do you think? Leave it or write more?

If I fell–Songfic

Warning: One Tree Hill’s Brooke and her feelings during Season 6 mainly surrounding her ‘relationship’ with Julian.

I still remember talking to him the first time. He was so arrogant and jock like. So sure of himself and we all thought he was here for Peyton. I mean he really tried to make her jealous or something. And now what does he want? He was so cute when he helped me looking for Sam. He was so caring and he kind of saved me.

If I fell in love with you

would you promise to be true,

and help me understand?

What is tonight about? Why am I dressed like this? Could Sam be right? He really did say 'Hot clothing designer' what does that mean? Should I really dress up tonight? Arrgh Sam and her stupid ideas! And now everything changed.

'cos I've been in love before,

and I found that love was more,

than just holding hands.

His grin! That should be illegal. I just don't know what to think. I can't think when I am around him. Sam walking in on us should be proof enough of that. He is driving me crazy but is really a good guy? Having fun, what is that? He said it and than Peyton told me that he jumped right into bed with someone else after their break up. And than he looked so hurt when I pulled the breaks! Why? If we are just having fun he shouldn't be hurt!

If I give my heart to you,

I must be sure from the very start,

that you would love me more then her.

And then only hours later Peyton tells me her facts were wrong! Oh my god! But what does this mean? He skipped his own premier to nurse his broken heart! He still loves her... Why does this always happen to me?

If I trust in you, oh please,

Don't run and hide,

Oh what does he want now? He is giving me the jacket back? Oh no he really don't loves me. Steady? What does that mean. Am I just a game? Oh my I totally understand why Peyton fell for him. He has a way with words. He is here for the girl in the book , the other girl, me!

If I love you too, oh please don't hurt my pride like her.

That ass! Brookeish? What is that? What does he think? I am not a slut and I never was! Okay maybe... but that so doesn't give him the right do laugh at me. Thank god Peyton is okay with me and Julian. Why is Missy so annoying? What? Who wrote that crazy piece of paper? Sex? That wasn't all I did! What is he thinking? I am not that girl anymore! High school Brooke is gone!

'Cos I couldn't stand the pain,

Oh my god he is so cute! The second break down got me melting. I never want to loose him. And now this. Why did he say that? I just can't say it now it has so much meaning. And then he accuses me of still loving Lucas or hiding behind Sam? That is so not fair! He is so cute and says the perfect thing one minute and than he is being a jerk again.

And I would be sad if our new love was in vain.

What did just happen? It was his idea to forget this freaking incident and when I am ready he just leaves and doesn't even want to meet after his appointment if there even was one! What did I do wrong? He is ignoring me! Why? And now the movie got cancelled and he has to leave. Karma is a bitch! Do I really want him to leave? I feel so bad! He such a good guy.

So I hope you see,

That I would love to love you,

Oh he is so good with words. 'The beauty is in the attempt!' What can I do? I want him to stay. He can't go now. I am going to miss him. Will he come back? Can we still work out? What does the future hold?

And that she will cry when she learns we are two.

He wants me to come with him! He wants Sam to come too? What should I do? I don't want to loose him but Sam she needs a stable environment. Maybe Peyton can help? Apparently not... She is making jokes. I cannot leave! There are a million things here for me Sam, my friends and the wedding and Peyton didn't like it in LA! I really can't decide. I can't go.

'Cos I couldn't stand the pain,

And I would be sad if our new love was in vain.

I said it. I told him I wouldn't go! I lost him! What did I do? Am I stupid? Will I ever see him again?

So I hope you see,

That I would love to love you,

And that she will cry when she learns we are two.

If I fell in love with you.


So what do you think?

Why am I doing this? I am archiving my work here so I wont loose it. Once upon a time I had a livejournal but that has been discontinued due to my lack of knowledge which name and password or email I used there!

Fanfiction–Oneshot

One Tree Hill –The Bookshelf Problem

Warning: Set sometime after or during 6x18. Phone conversation!

„Hey Brooke! What's up?" Peyton answered her phone happy that she could at least talk to her best friend. „Oh nothing much. How is bed rest? Not to boring i hope!" came the response in a cheery tone that Peyton recognized as fake.

„Oh come on Brooke spill, what happened? Problems with Sam?"

„Oh no Sam is great... it is Julian! Can we talk about him?" „What did he do? Did he hurt you?"

„Not exactly, that is difficult ... he told me that he loves me and i freaked out..." „What did you do? But Brooke 'I love you' isn't something bad. Why did you freak out?" „It is so soon. I mean he came here to get you back and now... it is all so confusing but this isn't the part I really need help with."

„Ok now i am confused. What else did happen? Just tell me the story or if you want just the cliff notes. I can't help you with something i know nothing about!"

Brooke tells Peyton everything from the „ I want you gone" to the „deleted scene"idea.

„And it was his idea to go to dinner then, but as i came out dressed up he was on the phone and needed to reevaluate some filming place and said he would crash at the hotel instead of coming home for dessert!" „ok first of all to much information. Thanks Brooke! Did he say which filming location fell through because Luke didn't mention ..."

„What he lied to me? What could have happened?" „Ok Brooke please walk me through your 'fight' again. I don't get it!"

„Ok he asked me when was the last time I really was in love and then he went to my bookshelf.."

„Bookshelf? Why that?" Peyton wanted to know but Brooke just continued „then we called it a deleted scene and i went to change and as i came back he was in the kitchen ...". Her eyes caught the picture of her, Angie and Lucas on the fridge and everything fell into place. „That idiot! He thinks i am still in love with Lucas!" With that there was a loud bang on the other end of the line „Peyton are you okay? What happened? Do you need me to come over?" „Oh no I just shattered my glass. Are you?" „What do you mean?" „I meant are you still in love with Lucas? I mean how could Julian draw that conclusion?"

„No Peyton i am not in love with Luke i love him as a friend! And I think I have figured out what got Julian spooked. I have a picture on the fridge. It is the one made as Luke helped me with Angie and well it is of us three smiling..." „Oh now i get the bookshelf thing. He was counting the copies...?" The two girls shared a laugh because they both just knew they were okay.

Now they just needed a plan to show Julian that there were no worries!

OK so now tell me what do you think? Are you on fanfiction.net ? Then you can check out more of my work here.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Summer, Sun and shopping–A true horror story?!

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Over the Easter holiday I took the time to update my wardrobe and look at this summers dress code. Well let me tell you in advance, and most of you know that already, a lupie always has to be creative but what I saw even shocked me. Dresses are either underwear style or so short that the skirt barely cover your bottom ….
But I  really couldn’t resist and so in the end bought a couple of pieces. I even found a new hat.
Now let me present a few of ‘my’ summer combinations. Feel free to comment on any outfit but please keep your opinions on my body –mass-index to yourselves I am self conscious enough !
Oh but first the can’t go out withouts of this year! (Book, phone and sunglasses! The hat is on my head …)DSC00019

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OUTFIT #1:  “Ideal 9-to5”DSC00075


grey cotton dress, red belt, red ballerina flats, black fedora, black leggings and a black dress jacket with ruffled sleeves


I guess this outfit is fit for a day at the office. It is simple and not too colorful but not boring. If you don’t like the red flats use grey or black ones or even heels. The color of the belt can be a different one too but I felt that a little color should be as if not to look too much of a funeral attendee in a look only in grey and black.

 

OUTFIT #2:  “Party Time”

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Yes even Lupies like to go out. And I for one love looking sexy. Yes I know not all of us can actually wear these clothes. (Bad Bad Prednisone! …. by the way go check out: IcantfitmyJeans ). This outfit is great because it can easily be accessorized with any thing from ChroniclysILLy Designs and the orange bracelets from LupusLA .

Have fun and enjoy the summer even in more clothes than others!

Feel free to contact me with other outfit ideas and I’ll write them up!